I am married and I’ve never said no to my husband’s wedding proposal. Actually, I fell to my knees, cried and we actually waited to kiss until our wedding day when my now husband proposed to me. I was so excited!.
But, prior to him, I did say no– a couple times to men I once dated.
I said no to men prior to him for a few important reasons that I really want you, single woman to consider. Understand that marriage is supposed to be forever and you don’t want to marry someone out of fear or because you’re afraid of being alone. When I was in these unhealthy relationships, I was searching for value or worth. I was searching for affirmation. I was searching for wholeness. I was searching for fulfillment. I was searching for happiness. I was searching for love.
But..
I kept coming up empty.
So, I got into a relationship with someone and we were together for awhile. But, I wasn’t totally sold on him. I continued to stay in the relationship because I felt like he hit on my basic needs in a relationship. He was affectionate, nice, kind and giving. He said he loved Jesus and he served at church. Not only that, he assured me that the Lord called him into ministry one day. Perfect fit right? I kinda, sorta thought so. One thing was missing.
My peace.
“Lord, help me understand!? I mean, I don’t see any other guys around and I think I want to marry him? I mean, I’m not totally sold on him, nor do I respect him as a man, but it works… God, I just.want.to.be.married.
So, we begin to move forward and discuss marriage. My heart constantly said no. My mind says no and my gut says no. But, I’m in my twenties.. my friends are getting married & I sure don’t feel like starting over.
So, he asks me and I tell him no. Then I tell him to stop asking me! I was AFRAID of marriage! What was I doing? I was buying time and stringing him along which was SO wrong.
I said no to marriage to him because:
1. I didn’t respect him as a man. I didn’t believe in him and it didn’t matter how much money he had or where he was working, I knew all of those things were temporary. I needed a man with vision, I needed someone I could believe in if he LOST all temporary things on this earth. When my now husband and I got married, he had a very high position at his old job. 3 months into our marriage– God told him to leave his job and move to Mississippi and study the bible. HUH? You mean, God told you not to work and to just study & spend time with Him? To the natural eye, it may sound crazy but I believed in my husband and I still do. He would spend 10-12 hours a day with studying His bible. One year later, we started Pinky Promise. One year and a half later, we moved back to Atlanta and we started The Gathering Oasis- Church. God was preparing us. So, let me ask you this sis: If he wants to pack up and move to Alaska, will you be shopping for snow boots or will you nag him until he doubts what God told him?
2. I didn’t have peace. The man pushed me away from Jesus and I clearly made our relationship my god. There was no standards. There were no boundaries. We had sex outside of marriage. It was emotionally led. It was controlling. My thing is this, if you led our relationship to SEX (fornication)– a fruit of the FLESH, then what will our marriage look like? If I’m going to submit to you– I need to know that YOU know where we are going and that you can properly lead me.
3. I wasn’t getting better as a woman. In Ephesians 5:25 it says “Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.” Ok, I had to ask myself this question: Was this man presenting me as a radiant church without spot or wrinkle? Um. No. Granted, I had a part to play too- I could have said “no” to the sex outside of marriage. But it was hard. I told him I didn’t want to kiss until our wedding day and I quickly learned that he tried to kiss me everywhere else BUT on my face. Really? It takes TWO people to be on the SAME page. Amos 3:3 says that how can TWO people walk together unless they agree?? It’s not enough for one person to want purity & the other person to want sex. Guess what, he’s going to make you stumble sis. Let him go because it’s much easier to pull you off the chair than it is to pull you up onto it.
4. He wasn’t a leader. Well, maybe he was a leader? But he sure wasn’t leading me and I knew that he wouldn’t lead my one day son that he wanted to have & I refused to birth a generation of wimpy men. Remember that you marry his mindset & his ways and he pours that into your kid, if he’s around.
5. I didn’t trust him. Because he couldn’t keep his hands off of me, we kept breaking up. Then I would find that he would run back to other women. Clearly, he had the same problem that I once had– allowing humans to fill my voids. So, what would happen when our “marriage” hit a rough spot?? Would you run off to your co-worker?
6. I wasn’t attracted to him. You have to wake up and love who you’re looking at. I took all of the above + the fact that I wasn’t attracted to him. I understand that physical ain’t everything. It’s FAR from it, but I wanted to be attracted to my one-day husband.
7. I didn’t like his friends. Lets just be honest, you are a reflection of your friends. His friends were playboys and loved to hang out and party. So, you can imagine how his bachelor party would look like.. strippers & all. I wanted a man that had accountability in his relationships and those men pushed him closer to the Lord. Even his “friends” at church were so carnal, I wasn’t a believer.
8. He was so secretive. If you cannot communicate and get on the same page as me while we are in a relationship, then our marriage will be in shambles. Communication wasn’t a HUGE deal breaker, but after the top 7 things, I knew he wasn’t it. This pairs with the leadership thing. I just don’t know where we are going or if we are going to live in 10 different places in a 3-month span because I watch your life & it’s so unstable.
9. He was somebody else’s husband. As I shared in “Where is my Adam” I believe that God allowed that door to be closed because it wasn’t Gods will that we were to be together. Even if your relationship seems so perfect, if it’s not God’s will- you won’t be doing what HE wants you to do. Especially if your man isn’t saved. If you try to change him once you get the ring– that man will resent the God that you serve and hate both of you.
10. God told me no. I talked about “How to Hear God’s voice” and I KNEW God was telling me NO. He was showing me WARNING signs & I never had a “good” feeling about walking down the aisle with this guy. Sis, I encourage you to tell that man NO! Even if you’ve already said yes. Even if the invites have been sent out. Even if you’ve already booked the venue. Yes, it may be hard to do it, but you’ll either have a broken engagement or a broken marriage where you now include children.
A ring and a marriage ain’t everything. Living for Jesus and giving our whole hearts to Him is everything. So, if you’re in a relationship that you’re not supposed to be in– I encourage you to break it off and ask the Lord to give you boldness and help to keep your decision, even when you’re lonely. Learn to trust God sis, I know it’s hard but He is jealous for the time & the attention you give these guys!
The worst feeling for a woman is to walk down the aisle to a man that God never told her to be with. She will remember that feeling forever. Walk down that aisle with peace instead.
If if you did marry a man that you have no peace with, you will experience attacks that someone else may not have to go through. There is a cost to pay for disobeying God, BUT God can still use your marriage. Win your guy over with your quiet & gentle spirit & pray earnestly that God would save him.
God loves you like crazy.
Heather Lindsey
Just a few things:
1. I opened up a Pinky Promise Boutique!!! Think fashionable, fabulous purity rings, cross bracelets, journals, statement necklaces & so much more for women! Check it out via www.pinkypromiseboutiques.com.
2. We have developed an APP! Think: daily post notifications + weekly devotionals, recipes and so much more! It’s out NOW for iphones + Androids. Under Heather & Cornelius Lindsey: Today With the Lindsey’s
3. If you live in Atlanta, I want to invite you to our church. Join us on Sundays at 11:00am at Landmark Art Cinemas. Our churches name is: “The Gathering Oasis” 931 Monroe Drive NE Atlanta, GA.
4. My book is selling like crazy! I’m so thankful for all of you that have supported! Check it out here: My New Book! Pink Lips & Empty Hearts: www.PinkLipsAndEmptyHearts.com AND my new book, “A Perfect Recipe” here!
5. Register for the 2014 Pinky Promise in Atlanta, GA! It sold out last year, so you don’t want to miss out! www.pinkypromiseconference.com
6. As always, you can join a Pinky Promise group locally! There’s about 20,000 ladies that have joined! Find a group near you by joining & checking out the intro page! Join here:www.PinkyPromiseMovement.com
7. We are hosting a Marriage Retreat in August & a Single Retreat in October & so far, both events are almost sold out! We would LOVE to meet you! Join us via www.thegonow.com under events!
1. I opened up a Pinky Promise Boutique!!! Think fashionable, fabulous purity rings, cross bracelets, journals, statement necklaces & so much more for women! Check it out via www.pinkypromiseboutiques.com.
2. We have developed an APP! Think: daily post notifications + weekly devotionals, recipes and so much more! It’s out NOW for iphones + Androids. Under Heather & Cornelius Lindsey: Today With the Lindsey’s
3. If you live in Atlanta, I want to invite you to our church. Join us on Sundays at 11:00am at Landmark Art Cinemas. Our churches name is: “The Gathering Oasis” 931 Monroe Drive NE Atlanta, GA.
4. My book is selling like crazy! I’m so thankful for all of you that have supported! Check it out here: My New Book! Pink Lips & Empty Hearts: www.PinkLipsAndEmptyHearts.com AND my new book, “A Perfect Recipe” here!
5. Register for the 2014 Pinky Promise in Atlanta, GA! It sold out last year, so you don’t want to miss out! www.pinkypromiseconference.com
6. As always, you can join a Pinky Promise group locally! There’s about 20,000 ladies that have joined! Find a group near you by joining & checking out the intro page! Join here:www.PinkyPromiseMovement.com
7. We are hosting a Marriage Retreat in August & a Single Retreat in October & so far, both events are almost sold out! We would LOVE to meet you! Join us via www.thegonow.com under events!
Our wedding day! 🙂 Eating prior to meeting the guests!
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